Ms. Berdette… You’re waiting too long before you get down to writing your thoughts in your blog. 1 am isn’t the best time to start writing. Your body would probably benefit from getting your day back into daytime and letting your night occur during nighttime. It would make sense to shape up your sleeping pattern, right hun? And after that short speech to myself I’ll move on to the actual blogpost…
My personal Matrix
My mind has switched into Creative Mode. I literally see books, movies, ventures, projects and connections flashing by, craving my attention, asking to be produced and made real. It’s all there inside of my head, or rather flowing through my mind, which feels very similar to watching the green codes against a black background in the movie The Matrix.
Reading my mind
Laying down on my bed, facing the ceiling with my eyes closed. I read my mind, following different threads, getting caught up in the intriguing parts and I smile. It’s all there, letting me know that it’s ready to be transformed into actual products etc. How I wish that I could plug my brain into the computer and simply transfer what so eagerly wants to get out.
Notice: During those lay-downs my eyes move behind my closed eyelids, as I’m in the middle of my REM sleep, and I experience a special feeling.
Visualizing or receiving
Before I’ve thought of the above as myself “visualizing”, i.e. I’m the one creating something with my imagination by consistently focusing on it in my mind, parallel with taking action towards it. The more I see, the more I understand that it (all the creations-to-be) goes way beyond the concept of “me”. Now, instead of me “creating through visualization”, I’m rather experiencing that I’m opening up to a constant flow of dots waiting to be connected. It’s like I’ve received the key to a giant mental IKEA store, filled with handy furniture ready to be put together (Matrix style, that is) to increase the experienced life quality for millions & millions of people.
A third option
I’ve more or less completely moved beyond the idea of me “creating” or “visualizing”. “Receiving” was my next approach to the phenomenon I’m experiencing, although I’m not all satisfied with the picture of a sender and a receiver (one sender and multiple receivers, or even a multitude of both?). I believe that it’s more complex than that – and simpler at the same time.
What if
Imagine everything already existing… like a Christmas calendar filled with tempting & exciting gifts. They’re all teasing your curiosity and you only get to open one each day. It’s all there already, although it’s revealed to you one gift at a time. When you begin opening the parcels they all bring experiences for you to appreciate in any way you choose, and they seem to be so different from each other. Then, as your gifts start to add up, you get a sense of a theme. You progress and this little voice inside of you gives you hints of a bigger picture.
A distant memory
You keep opening presents, the voice gets louder, the hunches stronger and the vision becomes clearer. When you ask yourself “where have I seen this before?” you feel rather than see the vague contours of a distant memory. You see yourself creating parcels with a playful smile on your lips and you start to recall… something.
Recalling
Yep, recalling that “something” is a pretty good explanation of what I’m going through right now. With all the products, programs, events and other stuff running through my mind, I get a stronger and stronger feeling that I’m “recalling” more than I’m visualizing or receiving. Maybe I’m recalling something we once created together, maybe I’m recalling something I once experienced with you. Maybe you and I are different aspects of the same whole.
Abstract oneness
What I’m trying to explain is so abstract in my consciousness; beneath the surface it’s much clearer. When I write about it, it slips away. It’s taken a long time to write this post because I’ve looked for the next mental image, gotten lost on the way, taken another step and carefully stumbled forward. What I’m trying to explain has a connection to oneness.
Essential reading
It’s essential that we read our minds to recall our gifts & passions, allowing ourselves to share them with the world. The more we live our passions, the more we share our gifts, and the closer we are to fulfilling our purposes. We are all connected and we all carry different pieces to this giant colorful puzzle called life.
The power of choice
I’m convinced that every moment of my life is a direct result of the choices I make. I’m also certain that the best place to look for guidance is within my mind (or should I say our mind?) which is intimately connected with my (our?) heart. The guidance I’ve followed has lead me on a journey including four continents, thousands of meetings and a wealth of experiences. I feel so alive! I made a conscious choice to let go of all I had, taking a leap of faith straight out of my comfort zone & into the unknown. Making the choice (over and over again) makes all the difference.
What about you
Take the time right now to read your own mind. Close your eyes, take a couple of deep breaths, lay down, stand up, dance, lift weights, do whatever you feel like. Hey, whatever suits you! The important thing is to pay attention when you ask yourself the following: What do you see inside of your mind, what do you feel in your heart and what does your inner voice persistently tell you? Let it sink in, let it come to the surface. Pay attention. You already have all the answers. Choose different questions and ask them to yourself. It’s fun and informative. It’s valuable and comforting. It’s whatever you make of it. Now go play!
Finishing this post more nearly 3 hours after starting writing it I have a suggestion. “Things”, since all of you seems eager to get out, I’ll be happy for some guidance on how to let you out faster. And please, be a bit clearer. Thanks! :D