Yo, yo!
I woke up after a really good sleep, had a yummy breakfast and went back to bed. With me I brought pen & paper, the ultimate tools for a visionary at work. I enjoy my bed, it’s so big. There’s lots of room for me to roll around in the ideas and glimpses of the future all woven into a nice, smooth blanket of hope.
The more I write, scribble, draw and sketch the clearer it gets. You know, I would’ve thought that I’d be really clear about what I’m creating during this journey and yet I have to remind myself time and time again. Even if it’s so darn clear inside of me, I get lost in the details ever so often. It’s not especially strange though; it’s a big vision and it’s highly abstract – at least compared to the materialistic every day life.
I’ve lived with my vision since I was a kid, it’s all clear and accomplished inside of me – and now I’m on a journey to let my logic catch up with the movie I planted inside of myself before I did a swan dive into this life. That’s what it feels like. I’m living my life as if I’m watching a movie – or rather experiencing a movie as it happens – and it’s intriguing. I’m curiously thinking “oh, I wonder what will happen next, where will she go, what will she experience, who will she meet and how will the story end?” even if I have the answer inside of me already.
Sometimes I watch my life too much from an observing perspective and forget that I have to live it too. When I do, my vision gets blurry and I lose contact with the narrative. When I start moving again, taking action, creating momentum, then the signs come back and I continue following the script that is already written.
I wonder who wrote the script that I’m living. Who did I co-write it with? I’m sure I wrote it with some of the people I’ve met for the first time during these 471 days on the road. I get that feeling from the look in our eyes when we bump into each other. We look at each other and I hear my own being reacting as by saying “hello again, there you are. it’s been a while and it’s great to finally catch up.” followed by conversations about what we’re doing and who we know and what visions we’re moving towards. It’s always like meeting family, which I’m sure is the case on a deeper level.
Anyways, it’s key to stay in motion. Clarity comes with movement and what matters is highlighted by repetition (it simply keeps showing up). Now I’m heading back to my bed ready to scribble down another part of my way from an abstract vision to a hands-on reality. :)