Dear Frustration,
I’m writing this note to you from the hallway floor at a youth hostel in Byron Bay. I’m in paradise, no doubts about it. I’m sure you would appreciate the palm trees, the amazingly tanned bodies and the joy of the surfing people here. If you just could get out of my head and into the surf. The waves are beautfil, I’m sure. I should just go there. This is one of those days when I’m inviting you, dear Frustration, into my life, for no reason at all – and then try to fight you with all of my beingness.
But I welcome you, embrace you and let you be here. It’s okay. You know, I’ve just had an amazing call, as always, with Ivan in Canada. It’s just amazing how well aligned we are with each other. It’s almost unreal to hear how our projects and visions develop themselves between our calls – in almost identical ways.
Then I had another call with John in the US. Clarifying and relieving at the same time. He’s shown up at the exact right time and it’s opening up for a great process.
Obviously the absolutely right people are in my closest circle right now, and we’re all moving forward towards similar visions with global contribution built into our concepts.
Yet I feel nauseous.
I’m an inch from crying.
I just know that I’m creating this pressure all by myself and that I don’t have to make it hard at all. It’s just one of those days.
Possibly this is what makes me human. Possibly that’s just another crappy cliché that I’d rather throw out the window.
Well, it’s about time that I get back to sharing with the world what’s going on and what’s up right now. I’ve been hiding out from blogging, stopped being active on my Facebook account, and I’ve definitely not updated the Facebook page for the Win Win World Tour.
Time for a change. And here’s the thing: I’m inviting you, dear Frustration, to join me. Cause fighting you doesn’t work. And hiding myself from the world, embarrassed by the fact that I struggle with you doesn’t work either.
So, dear Frustration, I’m inviting you with open arms, come here, come into my life and teach me a thing or two. Most of all, let’s be friends instead of fighting, let’s’ enjoy the beach together instead of sitting here on the floor struggling against each others existence.
Come play with me, dear Frustration, and enjoy the surf. This is Byron Bay, this is a piece of heaven placed right here, for us to appreciate.
Come join me, dear Frustration, I allow you to release that tight grip of this very moment and enjoy it, even if just for a moment.
And you know what the best part is, dear Frustration?
The best part is that I right now realize what’s the best part of having you as a companion:
My dear Frustration, you show me all the possibilities to make my life even smoother, even better, even handier, and even more fulfilled.
Thank you, dear Frustration, for allowing my attention on the details that holds a lot of energy, thanks for showing me what it’s time for me to release and let go of.
I guess I’m so good at living in my vision, that I’m surprised and frustrated when stumbling upon parts of my reality that is yet to be transformed into my vivid vision. Or maybe I don’t even need to find a reason for why I’m making it harder than it is. Maybe, just maybe, there’s something even easier. Something even smoother.
I’m sure I already know what it is. I’m sure I have the answer right here. I’m sure I know what would be the perfect next step for me right now.
It starts with turning off this over sized & over heated laptop, relaxing this over analyzing & over thinking head, taking you, dear Frustration, by the hand – and walking into the sunshine (cause there’s always sunshine, even if it’s behind a momentary blanket of clouds).
With love and my dear Frustration,
Malin Berdette
12.21 pm at Nomads Hostel, Byron Bay, Queensland, Australia