Had such a valuable talk with Sean today. Cars are amazing for those heartlevel conversations. The feeling in my body… being open and vulnerable. I’m grateful for staying with the boyz here. What I pick up through osmosis by being around them is changing my life. No doubt about it.
I’m glad that I add something too by being me.
The state I’m in right now… thoughtful, grounded, calm.
I know that in order to reach my goal, the most important thing is to change my perspective. To believe even more. Most of all, to start with myself. I can’t create something for others that I haven’t opened up for in my own life.
Right now my bank account is empty.
Below empty.
I am in Australia on a tourist visa.
I have decided to stay in integrity.
(meaning not working for cash)
I stay in an amazing apartment.
I’m surrounded by highly successful people.
I haven’t told anyone about where I’m at financially.
There is an infinite amount of solutions.
I am choosing to start looking for them.
I’ve been so afraid.
There are so many things that people have said along the way, that I’ve chosen to listen to and that I’ve attached restraining meanings to. Things like “making money sounds bad”, “I’m not willing to support what you’re doing in case you would make money later on” and “the intention of making a profit might be a huge turnoff for some people who would be of great value for the project”.
I’m absolutely sure that everybody has their own opinions based on their own perspectives and their own world views. And that everybody are looking to create the best possible results/situations that they possibly can.
What I’ve done is that I’ve taken all that’s said about money since I started this journey, filtered it, and come up with the most restraining and inhibitory meanings possible. And then I’ve gone victim to the meanings I’ve chosen…
And now I’m starting to smile. :)
I consider myself to be pretty aware. Still I get myself wrapped up in my own shit every now and then. Doubts, fears and disbeliefs. Hey, that’s just a waste of time.
Aron said to me at some point that every day counts, that every day is crucial and that it’s important to make the most of my time one the road. I can’t afford to waste time. I agree.
Wasting time
Not asking
Holding back
Covering up my flaws
Not sharing where I’m at
Looking like I have it all together
[insert anything that I haven't covered, but is still there]
Making the most of my time
Sharing all of me
Being completely honest
Sharing where I’m at & where I’m heading
Being clear about my intention
Receiving the support thats offered
Asking for the support that would serve me
Connecting with the ones around me
Staying in touch
Asking where others are heading
Adding values
Coming up with suggestions & solutions
Asking for feedback and/or input
[insert anything that I haven't covered that would be valuable]
Cool, let’s spend more time and energy on the second list.
Note to self
C’mon girl, you have the power to create whatever you set your mind to, no doubts whatsoever. Now take it on and get going. It’s just a choice, ey, and you’re in the perfect place with the perfect people to find monetary solutions. Soak it in, start talking and take some freaking action. NOW!